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04 May 2008 @ 06:05 pm
Ficlet: Letting Go  
Title: Letting Go
Pairing: 10/Rose
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Impossible Planet/The Satan Pit
Beta: This one is unbetad, so sorry in advance for any mistakes.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, If I did you'd be watching this story on TV
Synopsis: After the Events of The Impossible Planet and the Satan pit, the Doctor finally lets go, and gives in.

This little ficlet was my entry for challenge 1.04 on doctor_rose_las. I was originally going to make it much longer, and include more smut, but it when I got to a certain point I’d realized I’d finished without needing to. Please let me know what you think.



Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole
- Pieces, by Red

Letting Go

The Doctor’s back slides against the white cotton sheets, the yards of cool fabric a stark contrast from the woman in his arms, even through all of their clothes. Her skin is so warm it practically burns him, melting through layer after layer of the ice he’s so carefully placed around his stubborn hearts. It leaves him bare.

She giggles, trying in vain to remove his blue silk tie with just her teeth, so he rolls her beneath him, one knee on either side of her denim-clad thighs, and takes care of it himself, inelegantly tugging at the knot and tossing the offending garment aside. His shirt and vest are soon to follow, joining their fallen companion on the floor in a little forgotten pile.

Mischievous lights dance in her eyes as she caresses his now bare chest. Hot little hands slide gently up his skin, one soft palm coming to rest over either heart. He covers each of her hands with his, closing his eyes for a moment, overwhelmed. He’s kept her in a platonic bubble for so long that this should feel strange, but it doesn’t. It feels like coming home.

These are Rose’s hands, the same ones he’s clasped hundreds of times for one purpose or another. Sometimes it was it was to keep her with him as they fled immanent peril and sometimes he held her hand in his just for the sheer pleasure of her touch. It’s a pleasure now, one intensely amplified by the knowledge that he’s finally letting this happen, finally letting go.

He pulls one of those precious hands up to the back of his neck, rubbing her palm against the base of his skull. The other he lifts to his lips to place a reverent kiss against her fingertips. If not for a conveniently placed TARDIS and a rocket run on more faith than fuel, he’d have lost her today. All he was able to think about in the bowels of that impossible planet was getting back to her. And when it was all over, when she leapt into his welcoming arms, jubilant at their reunion, he suddenly realized how ridiculous he’d been. To deprive them both of something so wonderful, so vital, just because it couldn’t last forever, didn’t make sense anymore. How ironic that it took a nightmare to free him from his fear.

Taking control, Rose gently pushes him back, divesting herself of her pink t-shirt as she once more takes her place atop him. This is what joy feels like, he thinks as she leans down, the curtain of her hair shutting out everything but her touch. No, he amends, when her mouth finally claims his, this is love.
 
 
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unfolded73unfolded73 on May 4th, 2008 10:30 pm (UTC)
This is lovely.
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 4th, 2008 10:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)
lydlodslydlods on May 4th, 2008 10:33 pm (UTC)
Oh that was so lovely - I loved the image of her hands over his hearts, and the Doctor thinking about all that her hands have meant to him. Sigh. Beautiful :)
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 4th, 2008 10:33 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. That was my favorite part too. I'm so glad you liked it.
helygen: DW_cutehelygen on May 4th, 2008 10:34 pm (UTC)
This is so gorgeous, it brought tears to my eyes.
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 4th, 2008 10:35 pm (UTC)
Oh wow. That's an amazing compliment. Thank you so much.
the_lucky_stars on May 4th, 2008 10:35 pm (UTC)
Such a beautiful little piece.
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 4th, 2008 10:35 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. :)
ladyofgallifrey: Dare to Hopeladyofgallifrey on May 4th, 2008 10:53 pm (UTC)
This really does evoke a romantic mood (I can almost imagine the TARDIS having candles lit all over the place...), joyful and happy. Oh boy do I need that (don't we all!?!?!)! Thank you for sharing this (kan we haz more of these now? :D )
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 4th, 2008 10:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. I'm so glad you felt the mood. It is so important to me that when I write, people feel something. What's the point if they don't?

And your image of the candles lit everywhere is lovely. If that's how my story made you feel/see, than my work here is done.

As for more. Nothing makes me happier than writing. I've finally come to this realization. I want to do this forever.
Harpinred: helmetkissharpinred on May 4th, 2008 11:13 pm (UTC)
(SIGH) I am now all warm and fuzzy inside. Thank you :)
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 4th, 2008 11:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you. Nothing is betting than a lovely review. :)
Tina: world quotethatlibrarylady on May 5th, 2008 12:27 am (UTC)
Absolutely beautiful.
svanderslice: DW - Rose gorgeous smile (UD)svanderslice on May 5th, 2008 12:27 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
KathyB: DW Doc+Rosekb91 on May 5th, 2008 03:36 am (UTC)
This was beautiful and lovely. This, absolutely, is love. :)
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 5th, 2008 03:51 am (UTC)
Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to comment. :)
Marina: David and Billiejavabreeze on May 5th, 2008 03:38 am (UTC)
This was absolutely gorgeous.

How ironic that it took a nightmare to free him from his fear.

Such a beautiful line.
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 5th, 2008 03:52 am (UTC)
Oh I'm so glad you liked that line. I was so proud of it and no one else mentioned it. Thanks so much for commenting.
anneebratanneebrat on May 5th, 2008 05:31 am (UTC)
*sigh* lovely :)
svanderslicesvanderslice on May 5th, 2008 10:45 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
Friend of Narniabananasandroses on May 5th, 2008 12:45 pm (UTC)

And when it was all over, when she leapt into his welcoming arms, jubilant at their reunion, he suddenly realized how ridiculous he’d been. To deprive them both of something so wonderful, so vital, just because it couldn’t last forever, didn’t make sense anymore. How ironic that it took a nightmare to free him from his fear.

I love fics where we get the penny finally dropping for the Doctor, and this is no exception. It’s gorgeous.

Shen: Preciousmaniacalshen on May 5th, 2008 05:32 pm (UTC)
That's beautiful.
lachrimtov on May 6th, 2008 06:37 am (UTC)
Yay! Sexy Time lord sex and hand holding/ Very nice. And sweetie, you should make "A rocket run on more faith than fuel" an icon quote. Maybe give an nice pic of holding hands, or of one of the ships (like the one on the Oodsphere)?
sunnytyler001sunnytyler001 on May 6th, 2008 02:22 pm (UTC)
Fantastic!